Written by Dr. Eric Perry
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“I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow. I feel my fate in what I cannot fear. I learn by going where I have to go.” ~Theodore Roethke
I enjoy waking up before my alarm clock and laying in silence, surrounded by the familiar comfort of my home. I am an active dreamer both in sleep and in life. Often I wake in the middle of a dream and am left to wonder what was in the next scene. Within the safety of my dreams, I soar through the clouds and climb every mountaintop, all in a single night.
There is always a second of excitement when I open my eyes and become aware that I am awake and no longer dreaming. I am always overjoyed to be alive. My dreams are fantastic, but life is just more of everything. As I take a deep breath I slowly become aware of my body as my essence fills my arms and legs. Not fully awake, my brain slowly fires up as I start to go over what I have planned for the day. In this semi-awake state, safely cocooned in my blanket, I feel I can conquer the world. I allow my mind to wander, cradled by the quiet of the room. Slowly, the veil of sleep is lifted and it’s time to face the world.
This past year has given me both pain and joy; not in equal amounts. Life is an ever-changing blend of sweet and sour. Sometimes it parallels the sweetness of honey and other times it can be as sour as a lemon. It is easy to become overwhelmed when we think of the frailty of life. Every day of our lives we have one foot stepping forward into the unknown while the other momentarily remains suspended in the past. Life is a flux of constant energy in motion. We grasp for it, only to momentarily hold onto it, as it slips away.
I wish I had the ability to suspend the forward motion of time. I would choose to live in certain moments of my life; only moving on when I was completely ready to do so. Sadly, life does not allow us to hit the pause or replay button. Every moment blooms and wilts replaced by countless others. We must treat our time with reverence and not waste it foolishly. Life should be lived consciously and not in a state of reverie.
Although it is fleeting, life with all its layers of complexity is more than any dream. I would much rather spend my life awake; facing challenges and engaging with others than asleep in the safety of a dream. This coming year I am setting the intention to engage in conscious living. I am not going to allow my life to be overshadowed by my dreams.
What intention are you setting for the new year?
Thank you for reading,
Ph.D. in Clinical Psychology
M.A. in Clinical Psychology
B.A. in Psychology
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